Out on a Limb...

So then...yeah the er...future. My future. Hmmmm...you should know that right now I'm doing that thing when I'm rolling back and forward onto the balls of my feet and every now again clapping my hands in front of me whilst contemplating what exactly "My Future" entails. I know what I want and know how to get there and I know that until I'm rolling into that car park on a frosty Monday morning I have a hell of a long time til I get there.
At the moment thats all I have is the smallest glimmer of light at the end of a very long tunnel.
I've left uni realising that now at 23 I need more in my life than a piece of paper with a qualification on it. I need to be able to move into my own house and stand on my own two feet rather than sailing on the wings of my parents. I need to take responsibility for myself, I need to start feeling a bit of pride about myself.
To boot I know I'm alone on this because my parents never wanted me to do what I've done for the last year because I guess they knew I would be unhappy. My Brother as much as he has helped me out unconditionally is giving me a load of, " I told you so." Which I have to admit I guess I deserve. So its me, myself and I. And I've really gotta figure this out.
However knowing what my destination is I'm tempted to up sticks and move away and start new the job I want is country wide and maybe if I move away I'll get there faster. My family will still be here and they'll understand and I know they will support me. Its tempting cos now I have this tiny bit of freedom to actually do something with my life and stop pissing around with certificates proving I've achieved nothing much so far. I could move anywhere I wanted make new friends, find someone who wants me and have a job I love instead of this feeling of well being a bit empty actually.
Despite all this tho and the short term uncertainty I know that I have made the best decision of my entire life and all I can see is happy me, no matter how hard its gonna be to get there :-)