Whats half a mind when you can have a whole one!!!

Ok so I've been having a really damn good think since my last outburst!!! To be fair I'm outbursted out!!! I was in half a mind whether or not to delete my last few posts but then whats the point if thats the way I was feeling why edit myself!!? Maybe I just didnt get off to a very good start maybe I just caught myself off guard on an off week cos usually there is no distinction between whats going on inside to whats coming out. Ok so sometimes if I've got something to say out loud I will usually edit it only because I fear consequences. 9/10 tho what you see is what you get and I feel sort of bad that in the last week I may have fruit loop binned myself :-( I guess I didnt realise that I had to say as much as has come out but now I have I feel so much better and this is really for me to be able to say what I cant out loud [the bonus being no one interupts me!!! ;-)] Anyway the upshot is I've decided not to but I've also come to the conclusion in many ways I really am my own worst enemy. However having got it all out of my system, having actually seen the words in front of me instead of whirling round my head its actually easier to focus my energy somewhere else now so being as I actually feel like I cant be pissed off by a swarm of raging wasps now for ooh at least a week its time to exercise happy me for a while, angry me is officially back its cage again and this time its fricking well staying there!!! ;-)